peripheral people

I’ve realized there’s a handful of people that I want to impress. When I’m trying to make a decision, they’re the ones that I visualize. The problem is these specific people don’t matter, in the sense that they’re not involved in my day-to-day life. I see them once, maybe twice a year. Yet they remain constant in my mind.

What’s weird is that these “peripheral people” take up more of my bandwidth than people I’m actually in real relationship with. The people who are in my life are the ones I should want to impress, right? Maybe impress is the wrong word, though.

I think we should compare ourselves to ourselves (as in: am I a better person than I was this time last year?) but I think it’s okay to also compare ourselves to those in our lives who are really in it. It’s not beneficial to compare ourselves to peripheral people, but I think it can be beneficial to compare ourselves to our dearest friends. They give us things to aspire towards and let us know it’s possible to become great.

I want to live my life in the company of those who are really in it and not the ones who stand in the margins.